How did my week go? Rather fast actually. Do I still have hives? Yes. I do. They are getting less so I know for a fact that I am improving my life. Not only my life, but my lifestyle. Never thought I’d say this but it’s kinda nice that my body is a neon light tell tale of me going into the wrong direction. It prevented me from getting in too deep. Do you see what is not written? I got out. Or better yet life pulled me out. No, this doesn’t mean that I’m no longer pursuing my academic degrees. It means that the way I’m going about it has fundamentally changed. All because of one forced event this week and I’m not talking about MIX17.
During this week I had to stay home because a repairman was coming. He couldn’t come on a day that I didn’t have previous engagements so I picked a day which I thought had the least impact on everything else. Staying home turned out to be absolutely great. I got so much work done, for uni and for myself. It got me thinking about how I fell for the trap that the way everything is set up is the way it is supposed to go. That I have no voice and no choice in that. If I were to do it differently all the doom scenarios would start to manifest. As if I have no capabilities to learn, understand and fix things on my own. While in fact, I do have a voice, a choice and all the capabilities needed to manifest the things I want to see in reality.
I just can’t help but wonder about something I said that day. I said that because the repairman had to come I got an extra day off. Why do we call it a day off? A day off of what exactly? Obligations? No, I still had items on my have-to list that needed completing. I keep thinking about what more we would have a day off of but I can’t come up with anything. Or perhaps it’s because we don’t have to physically be somewhere where we feel obligated to be, such as uni or work, that we feel free? Free to fill the day with the things we want to do instead of the things we have to do. That brings me back to the question of choice. Do we have a choice in how we live our lives? Better said a choice in how we walk a path that has already been walked a million times with no side lane?
I can’t help thinking a firm and non-negotiable yes. Yes, there is a choice. When believing that there is a choice doesn’t that make all our days day offs? This would also bring an end to the distinction between work days, off days and weekends. It would bring it back to just days. Days where we can choose to do activities that benefit us in one way or another. I say benefit and not want to do because at the end of the day all we want is to relax and have fun even though that doesn’t benefit us in the long run. Anyway that is a different discussion. When bringing the terminology back to just days will that make us realize that we do have a choice in the how, what & when on days that are not categorized as off days?
Can terminology really influence us that much?