‘’You can mess your whole life up by hanging out with people who have no goals or ambitions.’’Unknow to me.
I read this quote or statement at the beginning of this week and it makes perfect sense. It resonates so well with how I am currently feeling. I ended last week‘s wonderlogue wondering whether I am heading towards another crossroads in my life, which this week has become abundantly clear.
I am very much heading towards another crossroads in my life. Not even in slow pace. I am heading there in such speed I should ask Lewis Hamilton for advice on how to not fly off the handle. Luckily there is a difference with the last time I was heading towards a crossroads. I know this time that there are big decisions coming. I feel weirdly prepared and willing to make them. To cut ties that need to be cut and to change course if necessary. Even weirder I feel no sense of anxiousness at all.
That is what surprises me the most. I am not anxious at all. I just feel like this is the next step, or better said the next chapter of My Story Of I. There is this sense that if and when the decision presents itself I will be happier on the other side. Especially in regard to the statement in the first line. I know for a fact that the statement is true. Unambitious people are anchors you just do not want in your life. That is why I, at the beginning of my adventure, cut some ties. So now I wonder is it time to once again look closely at the people who I have let close to me? Is it again time to cut some ties and burn some bridges?
In a way that would make perfect sense. If indeed I am starting a new chapter than starting over with the reviewing process would make a lot of sense. I mean I want the next chapter to be better than the last. In my eyes the best way to do that is to be in the best possible position. However on the other hand I am wondering whether my sense of preparedness is coming from my skyrocketing ambition lately and my super willingness to sacrifice things now in order for the dream life to be my reality faster.
Expanding on that train of thought, could the decisions I have to make have something to do with the new sacrifices I am willing to make. I am seeing more and more things that I would prefer not to be part of my life because they are not contributing to my dream life. By the way, my dream life picture has become clearer this past week too. Am I going towards a point of a clear cut ‘’NO’’, and then that will be that? I can’t help but wonder.
Currently I am still en route but the further I travel the clearer things become, I think, I hope.