2020 being a leap year has really brought me back to when I started My Story Of I in 2016, which was also a leap year. This year feels very much the same. I have been working on a new project that is very big and will throw me out of my comfort zone by millions of kilometers, just like what happened in 2016 with the start of My Story Of I. While working on that behind the scenes I have been kind of MIA on the socials and that is not by accident actually. It started as an accident but soon turned into something I might be really loving, I haven’t quite made up my mind yet.
So in late November my phone started behaving rather weird meaning I had to be less on my phone if I wanted it to last at least all day as was previously the case. The progression to January went with a few hiccups but I was glad it made it to 2020. By then I had gotten so used to not using my phone as much I didn’t even miss doing all the normal things I used to do on my phone, such as scroll Instagram and/or Twitter. I actually kind of feel happier, to be perfectly honest.
At first I couldn’t help but wonder why. How could it be that being MIA on the socials has such an impact on me, even though my original use was already very modest in comparison to what is expected of me because of my age. I started wondering how I got into social media in the first place, specifically how I got into Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and Snapchat. It was never out of my own interest, it was always to partake in an activity that friends and family were in. I remember someone explaining Snapchat to me and my response being the
super excited ‘’okay, cool’’. With them thinking I wanted an account, I didn’t. The technology behind it was cool and interesting, end of story.
Through this trip down memory lane I can’t help but to find it obvious that I don’t miss it at all. Do I miss some interactions with some people, yes I very much do. But there are other ways, still online, that we can communicate. Beyond those fun direct interactions I remember just getting really bored when scrolling the feed. The stimulation that others seem to get from it, just doesn’t work for me. I guess I am just weird like that? I can’t help but wonder whether things are either coming full circle or beginning again just because it’s a leap year and with the things I am doing because I felt the exact same way in 2016.
I am once again completely head deep (I know the saying is knee-deep however I’m way past that already) into my world working on this project, just like I was in 2016, the only difference being that it is a different project. I am once again completely MIA on the socials and really only reachable if you know how. I’m basically once again wandering around in the world I created and am creating. I know that seems rude to say that I am quite unreachable but I was never a fan, since my teens, of having all these different ways of reaching me. It always felt super overwhelming. I remember getting my first phone call through Facebook messenger, I was so confused and baffled I didn’t even remember to answer the phone. Perhaps that should’ve been my first clue as to how my relationship with social media was going to go?
For now I think I’m going to keep the situation as it is. Mainly because I don’t miss it enough to add back to my life. I do kind of feel like I am going against one of the holy grail advises of having a website, which is that you must be present on social media. On the other end many people who I go to for advice all say to walk away from it or minimize your social media use. They have gone MIA on social media as a break to see what would happen, and they also noticed that they were happier and more clear-headed. Which makes me wonder about the effects of it on our thinking patterns but that is a whole other wonderlogue.
I can’t help but wonder whether for me it, sometimes, for some things, would be best to live in awe of them but not participate.
On an unrelated note: Happy International Women’s Day Ladies♡!