It’s been a while since I’ve uploaded a wonderlogue. With good reason though. I’ve been really busy updating the page and changing little seemingly insignificant things. All to make browsing the page way easier for you. Apart from doing all that, there have been major changes in my life. Well one major and a few yet to be categorized ones. That major change has literally flown me out of my comfort zone. Almost as far as I could get. Later more on that. Grab yourself a snack and a drink because you’re in for a rather long update on how I ended up flying out of my comfort zone. Which I’m hoping will result in a better My Story Of I.
Let me start this update by stating the obvious, I have changed the theme of the page completely. It is an entire ordeal which I always dread doing but I will continue to do so until I match the picture in my head. I mean that’s what it’s all about right? Manifesting the dream life. The dream page is a part of that. Feel free to let me know what you think of the new outlay! Another thing that I have added is a subscribe function in order for you to be able to be notified every time I find a new way to improve your My Story Of I. This letter is an e-mail that you will receive with motivation, inspiration and positivity to help you write your best My Story Of I possible.
Now the updates about my life. As you can read here I’ve had quite the year so far. Right now, as I’m typing this, I’m feeling much better, even better than back in May (read the back story here). However that was not the case in July. About half July I had a major setback, I was feeling the exact same as I was back in January. Luckily the doctors knew what was going on and could help me figure things out to get me to where I am right now. I’m still not ready to discuss what exactly happened as putting it here will effectively break my heart but just know that I’m still learning to be me again after that entire ordeal.
A part of being me is being a student. A psychology student to be exact. Well last academic year I started my master which I hope I will complete this academic year 2018-2019. I say hope because my plans have been changed a few times without me having any say in it ( such as being sick for more than six months..). Anyhow I’m doing everything I can to keep afloat with the student thing. You all know why I say it like that and if you don’t then I wish you a lot of fun reading the rest of my wonderlogues.
Let me get back to the point I was trying to make. The point is that in my masters I have to do an internship. Apart from knowing that I have to graduate I also always knew that I wanted to do an internship abroad. I knew that before I was positively addicted to traveling. Luckily my university offers that possibility. Due to the year I have had there was a lot of turmoil to get me here but thank the universe, stars, God and everyone involved that I’ve finally made it here. If you’ve been following the My Story Of I Instagram you could have already kind of figure out where ”here” is.
Here is the start of my internship in PERU! Okay so I’ve known about this for a long time (September 2017) but didn’t say anything because I was afraid of jinxing it. It’s okay to laugh I did so too when I typed it. Either way I’m here, a million kilometers away from everything and everyone I know. My excitement is through the roof but unfortunately or fortunately that also equals how far I am from my comfort zone. When boarding I was literally flying out of my comfort zone! I always travel alone, just this time it feels different and I can’t help but wonder why.
For once in my life I’m close to a hundred percent out of my comfort zone and I honestly don’t know or understand why. It would be obvious to say that it’s because I’m living in a different country but I’ve done that before. This time I just did it with less start-up mistakes. I speak the language, therefore that hinder is taken down as well. I can’t help but wonder which one is left standing? My anxiety is holding my excitement’s hands and I don’t know why.
So here we are, well here I am in Peru millions of kilometers outside of my comfort zone. Apart from wondering why I am so anxious I’ve also been wondering who will return to Europe. Now stay with me here. I obviously know that I will be returning to Europe, however after every trip I’ve changed a little. For me it feels as if I become a little more me with every trip I take. All the previous trips have been short ones of maximum a week, my internship is much longer which gives me way more time to evolve. I can’t help but wonder what all will happen and what all I will discover about myself.
I can’t help but think that I’m in for an interesting ride. I guess that is what flying out of your comfort zone is all about, right?