How in the lord’s name did I wander from my picture perfect Wanderland to Lunaland? I do not do humpty dumpty march to the rhythm. I march to my own drum. In this past month I started losing my mind bit by bit until the day I really flew of the rockers. July 31st is the day that I officially lost my mind. Now I just can’t help but wonder how I got here? I mean everything was fine at the beginning of the month. What happened was that I had to start dealing with a lot of people. People that could potentially help me to find a new apartment. Now everybody knows I do not particularly enjoy dealing with people. It is exhausting in more than one way. However in all of this I did learn something. I learned that I do not like society as it is. I really do not.
Now I know what you are thinking instead of complaining and throwing a pity party I can go out and change something. Well best believe that I am. I learned so much this past month I doubt I’ll be able to process it all in this post. It is true that if you do not like something you have to either change something or if you can’t change anything change the way you think about it. I am choosing to do neither of those. I am going to change me instead. All the greats say you have to lead by example so that is what I’m going to do. Instead of wondering how I wandered so deep into Lunaland I am going to start wandering in fast pace back to Wanderland where I belong. I hear you thinking how is she going to do that, she didn’t even know she wandered off? I am going to do that by using a trick that works on computers as well. At least it works on mine. Note I am not a computer genius.
What I am going to do is simple. I am going do everything I did before I got in this position. Which is not tend to my phone as soon as it beeps, not check my mail a thousand times a day, all social media scrolling is out the door too. The list can get a lot longer but I’m not going to bore you with that. I think you get the point. Keeping up with the way society goes is just not something I am willing to do. I like living life in a slowfast mode. I call it slowfast because I go after my goals fast but in the meantime I also enjoying every minute of the day. The humpty dumpty go with the motion life of the past month did not have that. Which sincerely makes me wonder how do people do that? Paulo Coelho said the following:
”If you think adventure is dangerous, try routine; it is lethal”-Paulo Coelho
He is absolutely right. Routine is what made me lose my mind. Now we are at the first day of August which to me seems like a great starting point to completely ditch these routines that I build in the past month or two. It is time to go back to my innerself and listen to what she needs. All I know right now is that she needs to not be part of society as I presumed for her to be. I just do not like it. I created my own world, my own reality within society. That worked perfectly for me. My adventure outside of it did not end well. At least I tried, right? Another thing I learned, there are a lot more social conventions that I want to part ways with. One of them being dividing my time between a million and one things just because it is right that way. All I can say is, all I want to do is work on realizing my dreams. Most other things have lost their meaning.
It is time I add drums to my pen.