Let’s talk about something a bit different in this wonderlogue. A topic I haven’t ever touched on but honestly can’t stop wondering about. Well better said one part of it, the part that makes it such a sticky topic. The part where you can’t forget about someone even though you know you should and really have no reason to hold on yet that is all you want to do. Am I wrong to believe that you know what I am describing? A part of me hopes yes, as it is not a very great experience but on the other hand knowing makes reading this wonderlogue more relatable to you.. Either way I can’t help but wonder about our willingness to hold on to a ‘’lost’’ love.
The thing that surprises me the most is the fact that we know that the love is lost. Maybe the person is still in your life but what was, as in the love, has no way of recuperating itself. With any other thing that is lost we would walk away or try to find another way. Am I wrong to believe that the reason we can’t forget about someone, even with the facts staring us death in the face, is because we are using the same script? Are we just stubborn then? I mean this behavior of ‘’try again and again and again until you reach success’’ is nurtured in our modern day society. Hell, even I pledge to it. I can’t help but wonder could it be that this pledge is the one biting us in the rear-end now?
Love is not a go-getter kind of thing. Not in the sense that a go-getter can’t fall in love, be loved or anything in that trend but the simple concept of love. It is completely emotional while the script we are running when it all falls apart is based on logic. Look at what went wrong, make a new plan and try again. ‘’Simple’’ as that. However, love is neither simple nor easy.. Given by the fact that it can consume even the busiest of minds. A part of me thinks that if I were to know why I can’t forget about someone, it will enable me to walk away. However the more I write the more questions I have. For him, for me and for love.
I know it is simple to ask what it is about him/her that one can’t forget but I truly believe that the not forgetting goes way beyond that. It has to be based on what we know. Which is that it is over. Could it be that the heart didn’t get that message? They do say that it takes the heart longer to comprehend what the brain already knows. Then again, why is it that I can only half focus on what it is I am typing? I can’t help but wonder could it be that my brain is also in mourning? I say mourning for lack of finding another word to describe the feeling, not because the person has passed. The only thing that has passed is the love..
Once again wondering let me down a path with more questions than answers.. To be continued I guess?