I have not posted anything in the past two weeks with good reason. I needed some time to put everything back into perspective. To figure out what my next steps will be. While doing that I was also away on a family vacation. Which took a lot of preparing and I am not talking packing. I am talking about the fact that I was surrounded with people about 99.9% of the time. Which, to be honest, is an adventure on its own.
The activity I love the most is all things I can do by myself. Naturally traveling is one thing I absolutely love love love doing by myself. Especially now having lived through my family vacation. It did not take long before I remembered exactly why I travel solo. That was not the only thing I was reminded of. I was also reminded of the person I used to be. Since that is the person most of my family members know. At least the ones that have not seen me in a year.
It was nice to be reminded of the person I used to be knowing that I am no longer that person. It became very clear to me that I have no intent of going back to that person. Forward is the only way to go. However I am surprised that I did not crash under the pressure of being surrounded by people all the time. Which would have definitely happened to the old me. Do not get me wrong I love my family, it is just I need to spend time alone in order to function properly. So any other large group of people will make me feel just as uncomfortable.
I cannot help but wonder what would have happened if last May I had not decided to change my life. I know better than to wonder about the past, but still old habits die hard. Speaking of May, it has almost been a year since I started My Story Of I. A lot has happened, has changed and has been learned. I honestly cannot explain properly how happy I am to be in the position I am today. A position of happiness and knowing what I want. Which I will reveal to you next friday.
This vacation made me aware of ongoing facts that I need to change and facts that I am happy to press in stone in order for them never to change again. The vacation turned out different than I thought because I found my voice and knew how to use it. I managed to do all that I wanted to do on vacation and even a little more.
I found my voice and now I know I am ready to take the next step.